Im fat and im ugly. Im a guy in junior year. Ive tried to open up to people but they keep shutting me out.
On facebook i get surges of emotion when i see people writing on each others walls about hanging out and stuff. I always wanted a friend to have sleep overs and stuff. Like a best friend who could save me! My parents are cold to me and are never happy with me. I am extremely unhappy and depressed and i feel empty inside. So i listen to music to create dreams/images of a happy or successful or famous future. If that doesnt work then i lose myself in videogames, movies, tv or books. If not that then my final solution. Food. I pig out on warm food that fills me up. It almost takes away that empty feeling i have inside. Ive been feeling ultra depressed lately so ive pigged out more than usual. Ive gained weight. I can feel it. Im ugly and Indian asian too. so no good looks. Oh did i mention im gay? I have no friends, No one who loves me. Im getting fater, i hate myself and im just alone all the time. How do i make the pain stop? Dont say join a club. Ive joined montage its not helping, chess club is for losers and im bad at athletics. I did track last year and i consistently got last place. How do i lose weight? How do i look good? How do i become happy?
My dream is to become an actor mixed with an author/writer/director/tv actor and form a videogame company.
Very ambitious. I know. I choose a multi path because i know i will never be on the A list. Multiple sources of income though could make life very comfortable. I have accepted that if i dont find love or happiness in life, that i can bury myself in work until i die of depression.
How do i accomplish all these goals and find happiness?
Well the first thing you need to do is to get some help. You sound seriously depressed and you need to talk to someone. If you aren’t comfortable talking to your parents talk to the school counselor so they can talk to your parents and get you some professional help. You won’t be able to accomplish your goals if you aren’t in the right frame of mind.
You can get friends by being friendly. Everyone is not going to like you and you are not going to like everyone. Just try to associate with people just like you.
Good luck and I truly hope you get some help.
throw in a tampon and get over it every one has there ups and downs u are u fark everyone else u have to make urself happy before u can be happy wit anyone else gay str8 indian fark it in the end it all doesnt matter do what makes u happy good things will come on there own set goals for urself and dont give up u have to be strong talk to ur parents but u have to be str8 up wit them if they dont understand u have to get away from the negitive go to the positive untill they see u for u it may be hard but life aint easy people are and will always be dicks i am too i wont lie but i had it hard and i pulled threw on my own for me and no one else and that is what u need to de think for u not no one else everything else will happen on it’s own good luck and be easy
Lucky! You’re Asian. That’s coool!!! You should be proud of that. Look at the videogames, anime, sushi, and comics and stuff they created it’s amazing!!! Who gives a damn about facebook! I refuse to ever visit a twitter page, facebook page, or a myspace page. They are for immature kids who think they’re cool or “grown up” , but deep down they aren’t. They don’t understand how to see joy in simple things and fun in childish activities because they think intellectly they are to old to take a break for those trivial things. Instead of pigging out when your angry or depressed, you should find some hobbies or other things. If i’m angry i rip paper or stab my bed with scissors or punch my pillow. I draw and doodle when i’m sad. I suck at it but it makes me happy and makes me lose my thoughts. I play video games to forget. Do you have a Nintendo 64? If so play The Legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time. Most beautiful game in the world. (the graphics are old but the gameplay is epic.) It makes me happy. Listening to music makes me happy especially from video games. Um, to lose weight… I heard you can drink a cup of hot water and eat some almonds before you eat. It makes you full before eating. how to look good? well wear what you want. something that shows who you are. See my parents aren’t to proud of me either. They want me to be more girly which to them is a skanky myspace addict Latina whore but i refused and bought clothes from hot topic which have bunches of videogame clothes!!! And anime and cool stuff! Then this could help you find friends who are interested in the same things as you. As for your self hatred? I can’t help you with that…sorry.. I too am still in that stage…but I officially fix my problem in my desired death. I realized there were still people there who cared for me even though my self hatred blinded me. Look for friends as they gave me a reason to continue. Be nice to people, figure out who else likes the same things as you. Ask don’t be afraid. That’s how i met one of my best friends, I asked her if she knew a game. Your dreams can be your reason. Don’t give up. And Gay people are fun and cool! Im not but i hang around with some.
hope this helps and good luck
for your dream…check for Cal Arts I believe they have a great acting school but i may be incorrect
~Zeldabuddy
Michi
Good Friends:
# are good at giving compliments without going overboard
# go around with a pleasant expression on their face
# laugh at people’s jokes
# are kind
# ask, not demand, to join in
# offer to help others with work or carry things
# invite people to do something
# hang around places where other students are
# are welcoming to new students
# are good at thinking of something interesting to do
# are willing to share
# are humorous and tell jokes
# are fair
# are good at organising games or activities
Try one of the steps above;
to lose weigt:
EXERCISE! its the best thing for you! You loose weight. Even if you aren’t good at sports you can go to a gym or do a few push-ups now and then.
To look good:
Um…you should be happy about the way you look. I mean being attractive doesn’t hurt, but it won’t get you through life. You need to lighten up and not pin everything against yourself! You could use make up, or if it is such a big deal to you get plastic surgery. (I don’t suggest plastic surgery…just look at Michael Jackson!)
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Are you really gay!?!???
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I think you’re a great person that just needs to open up to the world…
Cheers!
-Jewelsn’Glow
really, don’t listen to any of these idiots. The person that said you need serious help because you sound depressed is stupid. There’s absolutely no reason why you need help….it’s just that your situations, environment and society is f’d up. Let’s face it, society puts pressures on us. Without these pressures you’d more than likely be happy. Society frowns upon overweight people, short people, minority males for the most part, nerds, etc…you see what I’m getting at? It’s almost like an after high school life, where if you don’t fit in you’re cast as a “loser”.